I'm not sure

really not sure.

of decisions, of my past, of my future. I don't really know what i'm writing here. I guess i'm only writing this because I can't remember the password to my online diary. And I need to write something. My head feels like a big storm. Just circling and circling round. And it never passes. Oh dear.

And i'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself, I really shouldn't. There are so many people worse off than me. But I suppose we all get like that sometimes, I think.

Do you ever feel like you're dissappearing? Just fading into the background. Like lost papers or dust. Like you're trying to find the equation to make everything right. But you can't seem to find 'X' no matter how many sums you do. Now i'm rubbish at maths, But even I can do a simple x + y= ? But is it ever really that simple? It never seems to be. No matter how hard I try, my equation always ends up looking much more complicated. And I can never find the answer.

Sometimes I think i've found it, but I know i'm just cheating myself.

At least I know there is always one place i'm always smiling though. What would I do without girls brigade eh? Got a lot to thank GB's for. Especially the people.

i'll leave the rest of my boring saga for another day. Heres hoping tomorrow is at least marginally better than today.

xx

*the above picture is of my new puppy, Ollie. He's a labradoodle. int he lovely?

'Ellooooo

Hello folks. A little blog from citezinship and ethics. The class i'm in just now. We are meant to be researching world issues. But I sadly don't feel the urge, so therefore i'm not going to. Maybe next week, but wait, oh next week we're on holiday! YAY! :D

We are infact fully settled in to our new school building. I just somehow don't feel its my school anymore though. I would have liked my last school year to have been spend in a school I have known to be mine for 6 years. But oh well, what can you do? :)

I have a History NAB this afternoon. In about 15 minutes. I really could be cramming in some extra revision, but instead i'll continue to procrastinate on here. I suppose it's better than playing tetris, which I was doing previous to this post.

I will take some time to tell you folk (the very very few who read my blog, if any) of a few updates since my last blog.

1. I got a puppy :) His name is Ollie and he likes to bark, lots.

2. I got two conditionals for uni, which i'm chuffed about.

3. the conditions are AAB for both, which i'm not so chuffed about.

4. Ailsa has got herself a smashing new Job at Wishaw General. This pleases me lots.

5. I'm 18 this year.

6. I'm going to fail this NAB. Oh dear.

thats really it to be honest. There are a few others, but i'm keeoing them for me just now.

Have a nice day y'all! :D

xx

p.s my feet can't reach the floor on this chair. Its quite upsetting.

x

p.s.s Kirsty just called me a 'hump' thats quite upsetting also. x