Update

well hello there bloggers world...just a little update on my life these days. A lot has happened since I last blogged.

I am now finished school. I miss it a little. Muck up day was a riot but. *See Picture below

I also got my yearbook, I have a banana in my picture. haha!

I am also now 18, woop woop! My party was a smash - though I didn't expect so many people. I am going to have a big bash for my 21st which everyone is invited to. Promise :D

I recently gained my queens award, I'm so proud i've completed it. Rachel and Nicole did it with me and its such a relief its over. But proud of my shiney badge. I cried when I got it(at church and at the presentation)

I also have another new addition to the family. Harry the wheaten terrier puppy, to keep Ollie company. He's hilarious. * See picture below

I am smack bang in the middle of exams, they do bum me out a lot. And make me realise I have a great talent...for procrastination ;)

I joined the church today. I'm so glad to be part of such a great family of Gods children

Lots of things coming up too.

Prom(woop!)

More exams(snore!)

Lanzarote(woop!)

working the full summer(snore!)

Linsay and Kerrons wedding(which I can't mkae it too unfortunately, due to the above!)

Friends having babies, can't wait!

Dawn and Dons wedding(no date yet, but hopefully soon!)

that was a lot of things in brackets. LOL.

cheerio folks. x

me on muck up day. very mucky.

harry, the puppy

I'm not sure

really not sure.

of decisions, of my past, of my future. I don't really know what i'm writing here. I guess i'm only writing this because I can't remember the password to my online diary. And I need to write something. My head feels like a big storm. Just circling and circling round. And it never passes. Oh dear.

And i'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself, I really shouldn't. There are so many people worse off than me. But I suppose we all get like that sometimes, I think.

Do you ever feel like you're dissappearing? Just fading into the background. Like lost papers or dust. Like you're trying to find the equation to make everything right. But you can't seem to find 'X' no matter how many sums you do. Now i'm rubbish at maths, But even I can do a simple x + y= ? But is it ever really that simple? It never seems to be. No matter how hard I try, my equation always ends up looking much more complicated. And I can never find the answer.

Sometimes I think i've found it, but I know i'm just cheating myself.

At least I know there is always one place i'm always smiling though. What would I do without girls brigade eh? Got a lot to thank GB's for. Especially the people.

i'll leave the rest of my boring saga for another day. Heres hoping tomorrow is at least marginally better than today.

xx

*the above picture is of my new puppy, Ollie. He's a labradoodle. int he lovely?

'Ellooooo

Hello folks. A little blog from citezinship and ethics. The class i'm in just now. We are meant to be researching world issues. But I sadly don't feel the urge, so therefore i'm not going to. Maybe next week, but wait, oh next week we're on holiday! YAY! :D

We are infact fully settled in to our new school building. I just somehow don't feel its my school anymore though. I would have liked my last school year to have been spend in a school I have known to be mine for 6 years. But oh well, what can you do? :)

I have a History NAB this afternoon. In about 15 minutes. I really could be cramming in some extra revision, but instead i'll continue to procrastinate on here. I suppose it's better than playing tetris, which I was doing previous to this post.

I will take some time to tell you folk (the very very few who read my blog, if any) of a few updates since my last blog.

1. I got a puppy :) His name is Ollie and he likes to bark, lots.

2. I got two conditionals for uni, which i'm chuffed about.

3. the conditions are AAB for both, which i'm not so chuffed about.

4. Ailsa has got herself a smashing new Job at Wishaw General. This pleases me lots.

5. I'm 18 this year.

6. I'm going to fail this NAB. Oh dear.

thats really it to be honest. There are a few others, but i'm keeoing them for me just now.

Have a nice day y'all! :D

xx

p.s my feet can't reach the floor on this chair. Its quite upsetting.

x

p.s.s Kirsty just called me a 'hump' thats quite upsetting also. x

help

please, what do you do when you feel like giving up?

x

The World Spins Madly On

Hello fellow bloggers! I do realise I have not blogged in some time, I do apologise. I have been highly busy, doing very unimportant things. And funnily enough, I choose now, during exam time, to post a blog (procrastination reigns!) And also I do realise that my last blog, was more of a plead for red nose day rather than a 'something which happened recently in my life' kind of blog. However, I am not going to now tell you of something that has happened to me recently, As the only thing of interest to intimate would be that I started driving today, Went round the industrial estate with my mum. Was great and I didn't crash! Always a bonus! :)

Anyway, Back to the point of this blog. I wish to tell you instead of recent happenings, But of something I do every night of my life, Without fail, every night before I go to my bed.

Some of you may already know, that I am fascinated with the stars. The just amaze me with thier fantastic beauty and put me at peace with the world. You may also know that the view from my bedroom window is particularly unique, in that whenever I look out my window, I see the entire sky and right over the valley, When I move this view will be even more spectacular I am sure.

For the stressed person, I very much suggest you try this, It's kind of my meditation - as well as praying, It keeps me at peace with everything going on in my life. I switch everything off in my room, complete darkness and play one very peaceful, my very favourite song in the entire world. For me this song is 'The World Spins Madly On' By The Weepies. I'll show you the lyrics at the foot of this blog. Whilst the song is playing, off a computer, ipod dock or earphones, Open a window and just take a minute, even just a minute to gaze at the stars, take in thier awesome beauty -you will find, or I certainly find, that I cannot take my eyes off them, Not for a second. I end up usually sitting there for hours and hours sometimes, just gazing at them. Do you not find they are so amazing? One of Gods most amazing creations. They are just the most fantastic thing, I hope none day to be able to capture the perfect picture of the view I see every night.

Try it and tell me what you think. Obviously this will only work if the stars are all out, clouds are an obstacle we must cope with. But even still, I find it peaceful just to sit staring at the night sky.

Here are the lyrics of the song I mentioned, I think you'll find they link in very well with the point to this blog, Hope you enjoyed!



The World Spins Madly On

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on

Everything that I said I'd do
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn
And the world spins madly on

I let the day go by
I always say goodbye
I watch the stars from my window sill
The whole world is moving and I'm standing still

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
And the world spins madly on

I thought of you and where you'd gone
And the world spins madly on.

The Weepies

Make Someone Happy

Tomorrow is red nose day. And even though I will not be participating in the Geography Dept/Fairtrade Groups campaign to wear something red at school tomorrow, As I won't be there. I am still going to donate some cash.

So pupils of Carluke High, I encourage you to 'Wear Something Red' in aid of comic relief and don't forget to bring in your £1 for your registration teacher!

You can make someone happy with just one pound coin. Just the one. You may give more if you wish, No pressure or anything. But, DO IT! DO IT!

I will not have our efforts at assemblys last week go in vain. I will not.

Everyone else too, Remember, You can donate over the phone and online. Easy as pie.

Anyway, Happy Giving!

h xx

me and the cat

yes, that is what I am going to write about today. As it is really the only thing going in the house today. I'm sitting about reading english notes and talking to the cat. Though I would rather be doing anything else, apart from the talking to the cat bit. I love talking to the cat. Until she decides she's had enough of me, and attacks me(biting included)

So yes, I have several pieces of news today. Firstly, I bought the new Bloc Party album on Sunday. And even though I cannot see you all as you read this. I can tell you are all very jealous. Unless you have it already. Then you will be sharing in my gleefull happiness.
Secondly, Alison is coming back to the holm on saturday. YASSSS! After a few months at another job, she missed us all too much to stay away any longer. So saturday will be a good day. :) Alison is one of the goodies. Like Laura and Lynsey, who I was working with yesterday. We priced a whole pallet(nearly) of Yankee Candles. yay!

Quote of yesterday(one of several) : " stinkerbell" and "silly tarts" - Lynsey.

Last piece of news for today(nearly)

I'm going to Get Cape, Wear Cape, Fly. Yes I am. Daddy is buying the tickets tonight. I'm, paying him for them obviously. I'm so excited. I can't wait. I love Get Cape. I love Sam. :)

Also, I wanted to go see Bloc Party. But I have a severe lack of tickets. hmm...Next time for definate. :)

I'm going to volunteer training tonight with Shona, Cole...etc etc etc. I'm rather looking forward to it. So I am. Should be gooooood., Says Shona. :)

Catch ye's later

hx