help

please, what do you do when you feel like giving up?

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The World Spins Madly On

Hello fellow bloggers! I do realise I have not blogged in some time, I do apologise. I have been highly busy, doing very unimportant things. And funnily enough, I choose now, during exam time, to post a blog (procrastination reigns!) And also I do realise that my last blog, was more of a plead for red nose day rather than a 'something which happened recently in my life' kind of blog. However, I am not going to now tell you of something that has happened to me recently, As the only thing of interest to intimate would be that I started driving today, Went round the industrial estate with my mum. Was great and I didn't crash! Always a bonus! :)

Anyway, Back to the point of this blog. I wish to tell you instead of recent happenings, But of something I do every night of my life, Without fail, every night before I go to my bed.

Some of you may already know, that I am fascinated with the stars. The just amaze me with thier fantastic beauty and put me at peace with the world. You may also know that the view from my bedroom window is particularly unique, in that whenever I look out my window, I see the entire sky and right over the valley, When I move this view will be even more spectacular I am sure.

For the stressed person, I very much suggest you try this, It's kind of my meditation - as well as praying, It keeps me at peace with everything going on in my life. I switch everything off in my room, complete darkness and play one very peaceful, my very favourite song in the entire world. For me this song is 'The World Spins Madly On' By The Weepies. I'll show you the lyrics at the foot of this blog. Whilst the song is playing, off a computer, ipod dock or earphones, Open a window and just take a minute, even just a minute to gaze at the stars, take in thier awesome beauty -you will find, or I certainly find, that I cannot take my eyes off them, Not for a second. I end up usually sitting there for hours and hours sometimes, just gazing at them. Do you not find they are so amazing? One of Gods most amazing creations. They are just the most fantastic thing, I hope none day to be able to capture the perfect picture of the view I see every night.

Try it and tell me what you think. Obviously this will only work if the stars are all out, clouds are an obstacle we must cope with. But even still, I find it peaceful just to sit staring at the night sky.

Here are the lyrics of the song I mentioned, I think you'll find they link in very well with the point to this blog, Hope you enjoyed!



The World Spins Madly On

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on

Everything that I said I'd do
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn
And the world spins madly on

I let the day go by
I always say goodbye
I watch the stars from my window sill
The whole world is moving and I'm standing still

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
And the world spins madly on

I thought of you and where you'd gone
And the world spins madly on.

The Weepies

Make Someone Happy

Tomorrow is red nose day. And even though I will not be participating in the Geography Dept/Fairtrade Groups campaign to wear something red at school tomorrow, As I won't be there. I am still going to donate some cash.

So pupils of Carluke High, I encourage you to 'Wear Something Red' in aid of comic relief and don't forget to bring in your £1 for your registration teacher!

You can make someone happy with just one pound coin. Just the one. You may give more if you wish, No pressure or anything. But, DO IT! DO IT!

I will not have our efforts at assemblys last week go in vain. I will not.

Everyone else too, Remember, You can donate over the phone and online. Easy as pie.

Anyway, Happy Giving!

h xx

me and the cat

yes, that is what I am going to write about today. As it is really the only thing going in the house today. I'm sitting about reading english notes and talking to the cat. Though I would rather be doing anything else, apart from the talking to the cat bit. I love talking to the cat. Until she decides she's had enough of me, and attacks me(biting included)

So yes, I have several pieces of news today. Firstly, I bought the new Bloc Party album on Sunday. And even though I cannot see you all as you read this. I can tell you are all very jealous. Unless you have it already. Then you will be sharing in my gleefull happiness.
Secondly, Alison is coming back to the holm on saturday. YASSSS! After a few months at another job, she missed us all too much to stay away any longer. So saturday will be a good day. :) Alison is one of the goodies. Like Laura and Lynsey, who I was working with yesterday. We priced a whole pallet(nearly) of Yankee Candles. yay!

Quote of yesterday(one of several) : " stinkerbell" and "silly tarts" - Lynsey.

Last piece of news for today(nearly)

I'm going to Get Cape, Wear Cape, Fly. Yes I am. Daddy is buying the tickets tonight. I'm, paying him for them obviously. I'm so excited. I can't wait. I love Get Cape. I love Sam. :)

Also, I wanted to go see Bloc Party. But I have a severe lack of tickets. hmm...Next time for definate. :)

I'm going to volunteer training tonight with Shona, Cole...etc etc etc. I'm rather looking forward to it. So I am. Should be gooooood., Says Shona. :)

Catch ye's later

hx

Today, I am feeling a creativity block. Probably because all of my brain cells have been forced into looking at Uni stuff. Though I think i've found the prefect course for me so YASSSS! Glasgow Uni hear I come! (in a year and a half)

So anyway....Here is a little something. Not written by me. But a song i've become rather fond of recently. Enjoy.

Rose - The Feeling

You and your friends
Boxes of ten
Cool to the touch
You warn me so much
The white to your left
The red to your right

Are all that I’d seen
Til I realised the love that I seek
Lies right in-between

Rose
I love ya
Especially today
Rose I love your delicate way

The chill in my veins
Relieves me from pain
Again and again
I lose all control
Your taking your toll
And i'm no longer sane
Dont be afraid
The love that I show is the love that you made
So dont be afraid
'Cos your in control
I'm just your slave

Rose,
I love ya,
Especially today,
Rose, I love your delicate way.

Dont let him put you down
I won't let him put you down
'Cos your as good as the rest
And you're much better dressed
I think pink is my colour
I wont drink from no other Never!
Oh I love ya
Especially today
Especially this way
Oh Rose I want ya
Believe me this way
Rose I love your delicate way

I ♥ XFM

hx

good morning sunshine :)

Good Morning everyone!!

I am blogging from registration this morning. I actually did some work yesterday in private study, I am very proud of myself. :) No procrastination...Eh Ailsa?

Today is the ragbag day within Carluke High School, and I, due to my abnormally small memory span and my abnormally large amount of things needing done, Have forgotten to bring in al the stuff for it. You see, we're meant to bring in a bag of old clothes - and the more clothes the school donates, the more money we will get for the eco group. Never mind, theres always next year.

And besides, I am busy organising the Fairtrade Parents Night for the third years. This thursday By The Way! Come along and get some fairtrade goodies! :)

Anoooother thing. I am getting ever more excited about panto, even though it is not showing, as I seem to be more concerned with everything else that is going on. But I am looking forward to opening night. :) And I know are some surprises on the way before friday.

Anyway, anyone want to help me with an idea for my 6000 word assignment for GB's?
My previous ideas have been posted in earlier blogs, but I don't know if i could write enough about that particular subject.

Hmm...Its a tricky one!

hmmm

Heyyyyyy!



hey there. Today has been your average tuesday. dull.

was meant to be doing a drama thingy after school, our whole class was revising for the prelim on thursday. And Mr Young, HEAD OF DRAMA, decides to bog off home instead. So we were stuck at school til 4 until we realised he was gone. grrrrr

anyway, back to the point. I wrote another wee poem recently. This one is cheerier than the last one, I think.

eyes

in your eyes

in your eyes

endless circles of rainbow light

a sparkle of hope

deep, dreaming, midnight.

Shining starlight above you

breaks through, lights up

soft, gentle, pure.

a shimmering, bright smile

brings me joy and hope, and love

and even yet, makes the stars envy

at the beauty and the wonder

of you, so perfectly created.

I am complete

I am happy

little thoughts of the stars

drift through, fly through

eyes, wonderous

enchanting my mind

dance dance dance

your eyes dance with laughter, in the starlight

as you dance, in the spotlight

sweet surprises

will leave when you leave

and I imagine you are here

and all I can do is smile

because you are who you are.

(c) hannah jane charlotte mcmillan

YAAASSSS!

We passed - oh yeahhhh. We passed - oh yeahhhh!

I'm so happy. Happy, happy, happy.

its mostly girls brigade that makes me happy, never fails. Every week -Always makes me feel fantastic. :):):)

so, anyway back to the passing. lol. I passed my queens award general study paper, Along with Racy, Colepants and Katherine. We were slightly nervous(understatement of thee century) about getting these results. I feel such a relief off my shoulders now. pheeew!

Although I still have a HUGE workload to finish for next week, Including a bigggggg french nab. :(
"Je m'appelle Hannah, j'habite a Carluke en Ecosse. Je suis tres tres fatigué"
oh well, wish me luck for several weeks of like non stop essay writing, prelim and nab studying..etc etc etc.

h xx :)


p.s>>>> pictures of our silver duke of edinburgh hike, offt that was a hard one. Obviously not for Linsay though- check out pic number four. Ha Ha hx







Linsay and I...p.s i'm really not looking my best, after 3 days of no washing, and hiking in the boiling sun offt


Loch Ooosna, or was it Loch Ooose-no-more? ^^





^^Comfy Linsay?

verse

ok, here we are. my silly scribblings in private study. enjoy :)

it doesn't have a title. you may not know what it is about, but i know - and thats all that matters. And for the record - I wrote it about something that happened a long time ago. Not anything recent.

everyone out, closed

shut - concluded

freedom reigns, feigned freedom

happiness lives near, but too far to clasp

the mystery of a song

music, notes, tunes

drift -

to live through this,

struggle through,

clamber and dodge

focus on the important.

only to fall at the end

trembling, shivering, waiting

it will cascade

a matter of time, thats all there is

moments of peace are far past, on the distant horizon

easy to recollect, yet hard to catch

impossible to bring back

nothing will wash away

nothing will wash away

the truth, the sorrow, the tears.

(c) hannah jane charlotte mcmillan

h x

procrastination

yes, procrastination. Such a lovely word, yet it always makes me feel so guilty. Particularly as that is what I am doing right now.

Did rather a lot of it today as well. Private study, I did not do my personal study. I just couldn't think 'essay' - I was thinking all sorts of strange things. Things that won't go out of my head. So I wrote them down. As I usually do. But they never make sense, some call it poetry, or stories. I don't know what it is. But I like it, it helps me make sense of things. I will post it soon. Promise :)

hx

Personal or Private Study?

Today, someone asked me. What is the difference between personal study and private study. It did rather confuse me. I do know what they both mean. Personal study is the essay of your choice for higher english, and private study is when you sit in a room with your own work and a bunch of skivers from your year and the year above who try and make you study anything but private and far from a quiet, productive use of time.

I am rather just blabbering now. But i have realised that it is quite easy to confuse the two of them. I often say 'i'm off to personal study' when i really mean private study, usually once a week when the bell rings for third period on a tuesday. If you really think about it, personal and private are really very very similar.

But tomorrow, i will have to make sure i make the difference between the two. Because If i manage to let myself drift into the usual 'private' study routine then I will get no work done, which is considerably bad - as the prelims are in like 5 weeks time. Eeek! So I will be concentrating on my personal study essay tomorrow, during private study!(with any luck)

I do realise there was no point to this blog, and it certainly not the most interesting thing to be reading. I alsi realise that if I had not written this pointless blog I would have probably got at least three more PCQE's done for my essay, and given myself less personal study work to do , in private study tomorrow. But that is life, that is me. Typically me, that whenever there is something important to be doing, I spend the time i set aside to do it - on something completely different.

On a happier note - I had my first proper panto rehearsal yesterday. Though, my voice was doing strange and wonderful things when I tried singing in the kitchen before I left and then my throat began to hurt. So I decided it would be best not to sing, yet. But It seems to be getting better now so yay!

Annnnnd...I did hear Ailsa sing solo for the first time. And I must say, she is rather fantastic! One of the nicest voices I've heard before. :)

anyway, must dash got more 'homework' to do!

hx

my story

Wandering through fields hand in hand, the turquoise sky turns to red and indigo in our eyes. If they could see us now, twisting through the stars with laughter. We sit, cast glimpse over the moon and rhapsodise over how the stars, so far, yet so beautiful, light up the sky for us to see our way home. And how, the longer we stay, more grateful we are for what we have. And the longer we live, no matter where or how, We are growing more and more thankful for those whom we love, us and the stars. And as we drift into sleep, we gaze at the light on the water and sing slow songs to each other, while the breeze flutters through our hair and whispers words of joy to our ears. Hand in hand again, drifting into the dreams of reality, we imagine the life we wish to dream of. Thoughts sail now, through my mind, of the happiness we live and how blessed I am that I have this person, and my love for them is as endless as the stars we gaze at, in hope of a better tomorrow...

(c)hannah jane charlotte mcmillan